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Friday, 20 April 2012

Still a fool for you?

"go for it"
A friend of mine said.

I got the courage and I know the righteous way to do it
Stray away
Your name is a rhyme at the back of my head that I did try to forget.

You questioned about my daily life from a friend
A ninja at the back of the street alley thats how i sneak out
To not cross path.

Hurting is only an evanescent being.
I'm still learning to grow out of it.
Long have the gullible girl gone,
Only the witty one left.

You got the one to lean back on,
While I have the strength to leap up
After being lead.

You hypnotise me with your spanish lullaby
The lovely ride on a floral Vespa to Italy
With a bowtie on your neck.

O bitterheart,
Let it go.
Its past time.

Saturday, 07 April 2012

All the pretty little things we could be

"Lady, hear me tonight,
Cos my feeling is just so right.
As we dance,
By the moonlight.
Can't you see, you're my delight
Lady, I just feel like
I won't get you outta my mind
I feel love for the first time
And I know that it's true I can tell by the look in your eyes"

Heard this song while watching Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Ghum this morning, its a pretty good vibe on a Saturday morning. It got to my attention that I've heard it somewhere and my heart clenched. I'm annoyed that I woke up early on a public holiday and got dressed to school just to do work and meet someone. Lucky it rain so I did a U-turn, the fact that someone asked me to meet at 10 but was still at home at 2pm. Seriously, I would go all out for all my friends, but taking advantage of my loyalty. Fuck you and I don't need your sympathy either, i'm having fun on my own. Thank you very much.

//the day I wear a turban headband to school to keep my sanity intact

School is just draining me out. I need to grow out of my comfort zone and into a responsible working adult cum student. The workload is damn demanding! I mean I can do it but staring at Photoshop the whole day and searching for pictures isn't an accomplishment for a poster and a 16 pages of graphics book we're supposed to design. That's for design which I'm worried for today but for fine arts, Alhamdullilah, I just got to keep fighting all the way. I just need the push and I don't have the motivation - only my optimism.

Four more weeks and all of these will be over.

//Last two weeks was so delightful. Get to meet my love ones.

I feel like a kitty tangled up in lawn ball every time I'm with them.

//with momsy to buy a Singer sewing machine for me. i have yet to use it as im too stoked.

//Got along with my cuzzy who got engaged!

All I want when I reach twentyone ... heheh, a vespa to complete da swag.
Hahaha, by then I'm officially an adult and a teacher.
mhpm, all I know im going to have some ballz of time even when I'm ol' and wrinkled.

Monday, 26 March 2012

Because what is really ours is never gone forever.

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

I'm not good with words you know especially when I communicate. Only those close enough would understand me. So its pretty cool to find someone who actually understands you.
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My mom was complaining about the heat just now, so my sis and I annoyed her with this quote. This was the one that cast a spell on me. I mean like when you read all the first few sentences, you're like ... damn you're right ... up till 'So that's why I'm scared when you say you love me'. This last sentence actually tears up your soul. If I were to say this to anyone that really means something - I'll tear up. Because I'm a girl - and a girl is allowed to be emotional sometimes. And that was by Katy Perry.

- off to do work. Sorry for the inadequate blog post. Just felt this is worth sharing.
One Love babyyy.

Saturday, 10 March 2012

Does relationship affects your surrounding?
It depends on you and your partner, but apparently my sister ain't taking it to a good level. She changed to someone I barely knew and feel like bashing up all the time because she have this one guy who stole her heart. And so calculative, that I cant wait till she stop working and start schooling, then she'll live in horror. I bet.

So anyway ...

Last Thursday during NIE lesson, we watched Running Fence by Christo - Jeanne Claude.
Its so breathtaking and magnificent. The way how the artist involved the community makes me one to be there and experience it myself. Besides I found my ideal guy there; geeky rimmed spectacles, bushy mustache, long afro with a balloon shape of a dick on the helmet. heheh, hippy guy. Alright ... but that was back in the 70s. When I look at them back them and now, wow love that last forever up till Jeanne's last breath.

This sounds mad but Christo last project will be sometime around 2013, I want to go there personally to take a look. It would be a pleasure and life time opportunity!

Story of my life. Cant wait to catch this, the book was pretty good. Just like the thoughts in my head and also Amelie! ... You're off to catch your poppy flower, enjoy it before all the flowers starts to blossom. While this flower get the love from the glory sun. Don't worry as long as you're hanging around too.